Monday, December 13, 2004
how stupid of me? took me a day to figure that out... i'm not da sweetie pie...
you know when i saw that... i felt as if my head's spinning instantly...feels like there maybe alot going on and i'm not aware of... and thinkin at least when we were not together he didn't call any of us 'sweetie pies' or any other names... only 'xiao mei mei' which was fine by me because he wasn't the only one who call me that... ken and arvin called me that... only with the english version...
should i feel sad or should i treat it as it's normal for guys to do that? i don't know... wasn't even around to see or hear anything... maybe i'm being paranoid... or maybe i wasn't... been trying to hold back tears... been trying to tell myself that it's only normal... but at the same time... been thinking it's not...
i don't know what to think anymore...
you know when i saw that... i felt as if my head's spinning instantly...feels like there maybe alot going on and i'm not aware of... and thinkin at least when we were not together he didn't call any of us 'sweetie pies' or any other names... only 'xiao mei mei' which was fine by me because he wasn't the only one who call me that... ken and arvin called me that... only with the english version...
should i feel sad or should i treat it as it's normal for guys to do that? i don't know... wasn't even around to see or hear anything... maybe i'm being paranoid... or maybe i wasn't... been trying to hold back tears... been trying to tell myself that it's only normal... but at the same time... been thinking it's not...
i don't know what to think anymore...
i look upon the moon and stars at 12/13/2004 04:18:00 AM
Comments 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
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