Friday, December 17, 2004
everything din actually go well as expected... been in an excited mood the entire day at the centre... as much as i feel tired and hated every single second working... a part of me still was feeling alot happier... cos i get to meet him finally... hasn't seen him since last friday... and then... good things have to come to an end... even before it happened...
initially thought why he wanted to meet me at orchard at 645... then thought maybe he has got to work... even though its his off day... i thought so because he'd always go to the centre and then we'd go elsewhere together... but today... he came from home... that was the first thing that crushed me today... then he said he didn't have his dinner because his mom was still preparing it... that was when i know that we weren't having dinner together... 2nd time crushed...even though i was famished already at that time... well...
we took about an hr or less... to buy the stuff i wanted... then it was heading for home time.. he didn't say anything about wanting to go back with me... then i sort of tried my luck and said i go back myself... well... then he said he'd walk me to the station... i was crushed yet again... told him that's not necessary... he said he has got to walk to the bus stop there... was feeling extremely sad... been thinking shouldn't have meet him... cos when i don't see him...at least i didn't feel depressed... i mean even though he hasn't recover... i was thinking.. if he can go to work... he should be better right? i know i was wrong to think that way... but i can't help it... then when we reached the station i didn't even want to see his face or hug him... for any min longer i might have burst into tears...
then the stupid train towards jurong has got to be soo darn f***ing crowded and then i took the train towards marina bay... for i don't want to stand all the way to sembawang with the heavy things i carried...at least i get to sit... which was the only comforting thing for the entire day...
*heart broken* again...and now i hate myself for being so brat... cos people's already nice enough to come out to meet me when he's sick yet... i still feel that way... sorry...
initially thought why he wanted to meet me at orchard at 645... then thought maybe he has got to work... even though its his off day... i thought so because he'd always go to the centre and then we'd go elsewhere together... but today... he came from home... that was the first thing that crushed me today... then he said he didn't have his dinner because his mom was still preparing it... that was when i know that we weren't having dinner together... 2nd time crushed...even though i was famished already at that time... well...
we took about an hr or less... to buy the stuff i wanted... then it was heading for home time.. he didn't say anything about wanting to go back with me... then i sort of tried my luck and said i go back myself... well... then he said he'd walk me to the station... i was crushed yet again... told him that's not necessary... he said he has got to walk to the bus stop there... was feeling extremely sad... been thinking shouldn't have meet him... cos when i don't see him...at least i didn't feel depressed... i mean even though he hasn't recover... i was thinking.. if he can go to work... he should be better right? i know i was wrong to think that way... but i can't help it... then when we reached the station i didn't even want to see his face or hug him... for any min longer i might have burst into tears...
then the stupid train towards jurong has got to be soo darn f***ing crowded and then i took the train towards marina bay... for i don't want to stand all the way to sembawang with the heavy things i carried...at least i get to sit... which was the only comforting thing for the entire day...
*heart broken* again...and now i hate myself for being so brat... cos people's already nice enough to come out to meet me when he's sick yet... i still feel that way... sorry...
i look upon the moon and stars at 12/17/2004 05:25:00 AM
Comments 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
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