Thursday, April 01, 2004

i went fer my TP on 29/03. i was extremely nervous. needless to say i failed... it was quite embarrassing actually, 1st i mount kerb, then when i was doing my parallel parking, i actually parked it too near the kerb n i actually strike the pole when i was about to move out... it was a complete disaster. i'll never get over that incident... till now i still feel funny inside. my tester was cool. he calmed me down, i think he could see that my left legs were shaking badly, i felt terrible. it sucks having to fail that badly. though i only gotten 24 points and 1 immediate failure... but still he didn't penalise me while im doing my test route. i think he's trying to encourage me, cus when i strike the pole, i said i don't wanna drive anymore.. which is kinda silly and childish but anyways, he said never give up on driving... on the way, he kept talking to me, which i find it helpful but it was too late. the problem with me is that i guess i lack of major confidence, i wanted to pass badly and inside me i hope i'll pass. but eventually i have to screw things up 4 myself...
you know, now, i truly believe in god, i have to, cus i prayed to get the route i wanted and a car which i feel comfortable with and i gotten a nice tester, still that wasn't enough, cus its up to me to make it happen. because i lack of self confidence, and i ended up failing it. or was it merely a coincidence?

i look upon the moon and stars at 4/01/2004 05:35:00 AM
Comments 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon